Journal #34 take two

So I already did this blog, or so I thought.  Turns out there is a difference between yourself, and your Self.  Did not catch that one.  Whitman describes self as three different things.  Soul, peoples perception of you, and your perception of you. My soul: I like to think I have a pretty cool soul.  Personally I like to think of it as some spirit-y thing, nestled inside of my heart somewhere, wearing a fedora and ray-bans playing the saxophone with some serious soul.  My soul would definitely be cranking out some Jesus tunes. My perception of myself:  pretty much my original blog.  My faith is the most important thing in my life.  I am completely centered around my life as a christian, or at least I do all I can to be.  I am honest, I love learning new things, I love helping people, I love deep conversations, etc.  Overall I am a pretty likable person who loves Jesus a bunch and can't wait to get out in the world and begin spreading his love.  Others perceptions of me: From what people have told me, they see me as the weird christian girl who is really really energetic and gives super good advice and is always willing to give advice.  The other day I was talking about church to someone in the hall way and Emily Taylor was in front of us and turned around and said "I knew it was you!"  That is so awesome.  I love that.  That's the positive perception people have of me.  Most people these days don't really like to be up front therefore if someone has a negative perception of me, I'm not aware of it.  I absolutely love being given constructive criticism, but once again people are always scared that you'll get mad or stop being friends with them or whatever.  I find this stupid because if you are legitimate friends you should always be able to come to each other with problems and be able to work through them.  All three of these categories equal my 'self'.   

Journal #34

Describe myself.  I love Jesus a whole lot. Church is my life.  I am the youngest of four kids.  I have three older brothers and I would never change that.  Most other girls irk me deeply, too much drama.  They always seem to have a vary narrowed, self centered, and materialistic view on things.  I can get along with girls, but I don't think I would do well with living with one. I also have a twin who is my best friend in the entire world. I know I can tell him everything and he can always offer up a mature and respectful view on anything, which I love and need in my life.  We don't look anything alike, and I'm not the only one who thinks so.  I am 5'8 with green/ hazel eyes.  My hair is a very weird color.  Sometimes it looks blonde, sometimes it's brunette, other times it can be strawberry-ish.  It's whatever your preference is I suppose.  My friends like to debate on it's color.  I have a lot of friends.  I love all my friends all for different reasons.  I strive to love everyone around me, despite the fact it's very hard sometimes.  I'm a very honest person.  If I see something I don't like or see something I can fix, or prohibit something, I will take action and I will be blatantly honest with you.  Some of my newer friends this year have found that out and it took a while for them to adjust, but honest is always the policy.  You can never go wrong with being honest with a person, the only rule is respect.  You can ALWAYS be respectful to someone. If you disagree with something or someone, you can always put it out there and come to them with it respectfully.  If they don't react with the same cutesy, then okay.  You did what you could do.  I like wearing comfy clothes more than dressing up usually, but I love dressing up, too.  My friends always tease me because through the week at school I usually look pretty average and don't try too hard but every Sunday I go all out.  People who come to my church for the first time and only ever see me through the week sometimes don't recognize me...I love Jesus, I'm tall, my brothers are my best friends, I'm honest, I love english and writing, I want to serve Jesus and I want to serve him now.  I'm very tired of petty high school.  I love etymology, noodles are my favorite. I love having deep heart to hearts. I'm a beast at giving advice, or so I'm told.  My friend Jake got his braces off today.  I have nothing else to do right now so I'm going to keep typing.  YAY LONG BLOG. I have very straight hair and girls are always jealous of that. I'm very good at doing hair.  I'm very good at taking control and being a leader, I recently started FCA in my school with that.  I'm super bad at letting someone else take the reins, though.  I see how I want things to happen and I try to always do everything possible to make that happen. I always have my camelbak with me, water is very important to me.  I love volleyball and running.  I love reading, especially cheesy romances.  My dream is to work for Christ in Youth, a youth organization that puts on retreats through out the year for kids junior-high school.  I want to change kids and help them get on their walk with God and more importantly stay there.  I guess I'll study spanish, now. Stay awesome, my friends.  

Journal #33

This journal is quite ironic because I am becoming increasingly more and more stressed as today goes on.  It started in Advanced Algebra II when we began to do something that I did not understand whatsoever.  I hate not understanding things.  If it's my friends, my parents, my car, school, the bible, etc.  It's like a psychological need of mine to understand things.  Therefore when I don't I throw mini tantrums and cry.  Extremely mature, I know.  So once I got through Algebra and had NO IDEA what I was doing or more importantly what I was suppose to be doing afterwards for homework.  This frustrates me deeply.  This also intensifys my desire to get out of high school and start serving other people and showing people Jesus.  Generally I sit in class all day long and just think to myself I could be doing so much more than this with my life.  I realize I need to learn these things as to graduate and get a successful score on my ACT and such but I have already moved on from those things.  I'm not like most teenagers where they never wanted to learn in the first and never applied themselves in the first place.  I want to do all those things, just for a much more necessary cause and something I am much more passionate about.  Whenever I get like this, which is a lot, I try to just plaster a smile on my face and make the absolute best of it.  I talk to my friends and try to talk to people about how they are and such.  I really like helping people and giving advice so whenever I am able to do that it takes my mind off of my own issues and I feel much better because I was able to help someone.  I like helping people.  I get stressed a lot, to be honest, but you can't let the little things get you.  You just have to breath and know God has a plan.

Journal #32

As a seventeen year old I do not think that I have revolutionized the way people think.  If I have, no one has ever told me.  Fellowship of Christian Athletes started this Sunday and I gave the message.  It was the very first one, and I was really really hoping to revolutionize the way people saw things through this one message.   I was hoping to get things off to a really good start right at the beginning.  Everything went smoothly and frankly just as I wanted it to, but unless someone blatantly tells me that it was really awesome and hit them hard.  People told me that I did really good and they thought that it was an awesome message but they did not really tell me why or how so I'm not letting myself put much stock into it.  My way of looking at things is revolutionized on a daily basis.  This generally happens in church.  My youth leader is one of my favorite people ever, he has an intern too who is also absolutely awesome.  Both of them are very blessed with the ability to say things so that high schoolers can interpret and apply them.  Last week in bible study Josh gave us an article to read.  There was a lot of awesome stuff in the article, but one of the biggest thing was an analogy.  It said to imagine that you have a boat out on water.  You need to imagine that Christianity is your sail and God is your wind.  This was a supper great way of thinking of things because there so many different ways to interpret it into your own life.  I love critical thinking challenges.  I love contemplating things that have many different ways that you can apply them.  This completely revolutionized the way I can now view Christianity and my faith.  

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Journal #31

Gossip is annoying.  It irks me.  It irks me mostly because I find it hard not to participate in it.  High school girls really like to gossip a lot.  If for one day you simply pay attention to what the conversation of high schooler's generally veer toward you will not be surprised it usually is centered around someone or something someone did so on and so forth.  After you start to realize this, it become quite irritating quite quickly.  You find that you don't really want to talk to anyone because all they're ganna talk about it is someone else and how they are so much better than them because they did this or that blah blah blah blah blahhhhh.  The worst part is a lot of the time you realize you are the one doing that talking.  You see something happen or hear about it or it happens to you and all you wanna do is tell people about it and make them laugh or empathize.  You have this great story and you really want to tell people so you can have the attention.  That pretty much all there is to it.  There are some people who it is more about the story than the reaction they'll get, but a good majority of the time, people gossip simply so they can feel elevated over someone and get a good reaction out of the people they tell it to.  This is highly irritating to me.  I try my hardest to stop myself and others when I feel the conversation becoming hurtful.  I remember I was at steak and shake in Lincoln visiting one of my friends who goes there.  A group of girls walked in and the group I was with started bashing on them haaard core.  It was unnecessary and frankly irritating.  It was around Christmas time so there were a few trees up for decoration.  As to draw their attention away from the girls I simply blurted out "HAI.  LOOK AT THE GREEN THINGS." It worked like a charm. 

Journal #30

Civil Rights was a ginormous movement that happened majorly while Martin Luther Kind Junior was alive.  A prominent figure during the Civil Rights movement was Rosa Parks.  She was an African-American women.  It was expected that white people got the front seats in a city bus whenever they wanted and black people had to get up and move to the back for them.  This was just something that was a social norm sadly.  Well Rosa Parks didn't like this.  She eventually got tired of it and when asked to give up her seat during one particular occurrence to a white man, she refused.  She blatantly refused because SHE'S AWESOME. And a half.  She was arrested and I think put in jail.  I am not sure what happened after that, government wise and such.  The Civil Rights movement began to boom like crazy, though.  She established an extremely radical precedent that day for black people.  Simply by refusing to give up her seat to someone equal to her helped black americans all over the world realize that they were no less than any white person and deserved whatever seat they wanted.  Rosa Parks birthday is today.  Today is February 4, 2013.  If Rosa Parks were still alive, she would have turned 100 years old.  That is just crazy.  That means she was born in 1913.  One-hundred years ago.  ONE-HUNDRED.  There is also another very important event happening going on today.  It is also my mommys birthday! The one who created and birthed me!  She was born today!  She is turning forty-nine today!  I think...yeah I don't think she's fifty years old yet.  That will be a very weird day when she does turn fifty.  She doesn't seem old to me, but fifty is pretty old I suppose.  My mother has always had the plan to make Rosa Parks birthday a national holiday so that she wouldn't have to work ever.  She's a teacher.  That would be very fun because I could spend the day with my mommy and I think Rosa Parks deserves it.