Journal #33

This journal is quite ironic because I am becoming increasingly more and more stressed as today goes on.  It started in Advanced Algebra II when we began to do something that I did not understand whatsoever.  I hate not understanding things.  If it's my friends, my parents, my car, school, the bible, etc.  It's like a psychological need of mine to understand things.  Therefore when I don't I throw mini tantrums and cry.  Extremely mature, I know.  So once I got through Algebra and had NO IDEA what I was doing or more importantly what I was suppose to be doing afterwards for homework.  This frustrates me deeply.  This also intensifys my desire to get out of high school and start serving other people and showing people Jesus.  Generally I sit in class all day long and just think to myself I could be doing so much more than this with my life.  I realize I need to learn these things as to graduate and get a successful score on my ACT and such but I have already moved on from those things.  I'm not like most teenagers where they never wanted to learn in the first and never applied themselves in the first place.  I want to do all those things, just for a much more necessary cause and something I am much more passionate about.  Whenever I get like this, which is a lot, I try to just plaster a smile on my face and make the absolute best of it.  I talk to my friends and try to talk to people about how they are and such.  I really like helping people and giving advice so whenever I am able to do that it takes my mind off of my own issues and I feel much better because I was able to help someone.  I like helping people.  I get stressed a lot, to be honest, but you can't let the little things get you.  You just have to breath and know God has a plan.